My First Prayer

I had no idea that there was any relationship between spirituality and change when I first discovered God. I was just hanging out in a 12-step recovery program trying to go with the flow. Prior to being in the program, I had not thought much about God. As far as I was concerned, God had given birth to us and then died leaving us to fend for ourselves. But my addictions had humbled me, and I was trying to be open-minded. This in itself was a miracle.

At the time, I was surrounded by spiritual people and they were constantly advising me on the subject of spirituality. One close friend suggested that I surrender myself to God even before I had fully come to believe in the reality of a Higher Power. I thought this was a ridiculous idea, but I decided to give it a try anyway. So I memorized a prayer in which I surrendered to God. I also prayed for God to reveal himself to me. I repeated this prayer often and waited to see what would happen.