Breakthrough with the inner child(ren)

There was a break through today. I was able to get my 5 yr old inner child to come to me...her name is holly..ironically the name I gave myself here...but also the name that I gave myself for the websites...the thing is on the websites if someone begins to talk to me sexually I tell them my name is Rachelle which is my middle name and the name my 17 year old inner child goes by. Anyway, today Holly let me take her in my arms, everything is still in black and white...but she let me hold her, she wrapped her arms and legs around me,I stroked her matted hair and and told her everything will be alright, told her it is going to take some time but I will get this figured out. She clung to me..never speaking but letting me know she understood.

I posted in I need help today too...I do not know how to reconcile the two..feeling so split and as if I am loosing the battle and also feeling so good about this break through with the inner child. Am I really getting somewhere or am I just fooling myself?