He doesn't believe..... Sept 27, 2009 2:49:56 GMT -8
Post by dawnbelieves on Sept 27, 2009 2:49:56 GMT -8
Okay, I have known this guy since I was 13 year old. We had a little relationship while I was kid when we first met and then off and on a couple of times as we have grown up. He really bacame a part of the family because his family really wasn't there for him. He has in the past had some drug problems but has been clean from drugs for some years now. He is doing really well. I go to his house and visit him often just as a friend. We have no physical relationship other that maybe a hug when I leave. We usually will play on the computer together or watch a movie. We don't even sit together when we watch a movie. He chills in his recliner and I sit on the sofa. We are really good friends. I can tell him anything and he really listens to me. I was telling him about a class I teach and he seemed interested to hear my stories....even when no one else is. He never tries anything on me. He knows that I am waiting till I am married to have sex again so even if we did start a romantic relationship he already knows where I stand. He is a really good guy. BUT (there is always a but in my world) he does not believe that Jesus died for his sins. That is my main problem. It says in the Bible that we are not to yolk ourselves to unbelievers. I hate this because he has told me time and time again that he does love me and that he wants to marry me one day. Wow, that would be great. To marry him one day. I mean, that would definitely be what I want. Of course, not until I am done with school and that makes me think about the fact that I am not going to have sex till I am married. I mean, come on....I don't graduate for 2 2/1 years. Can I really make a man wait that long? I guess if he really loves me then he would wait that long. He would have to. BUT he doesn't believe in Jesus. Well, he believes the Jesus was a person....even a prophet of God....just that he did not die for our sins. He believes in God and creation and everything else that i believe in but believing in Jesus is most important in all of that. If Jesus didn't die for our sins then we are really in a mess in my opinion. So, I just don't know what to do. I have not always had these feelings. But recently when I go over there I want him to sit with me. I want to give him a kiss before I leave. Of course I don't, but I really want to. When I went over there yesterday I soooo badly wanted to go up to him and give him a kiss and a hug. I mean, seriously, I got it bad. I am going to give this some time to think it through. I always fall for guys that are wrong for me and the of course old LA patterns start taking over. I don't want that to happen. I am going to not talk to him or call him at all this week and just think and pray. I just can't seem to discern what God wants from me. I am tired of being single but at the same time really scared of being in a relationship. I just don't know what to do.