Post by rio6789 on Nov 6, 2009 17:11:28 GMT -8
I need help.......in a nutshell, I'm 38 F, married with 4 kids (7 and under).....I just sent a married man (whose wife is also my good friend, and our kids are too), an e-mail that told him I thought he was attractive, and that every minute I spent with him at a kids' bday party was extremely enjoyable......I've been tracking this guy for the past 6months, and have been trying to intersect with him at every occasion where I know he will be there.......then I try to look all pretty, with the goal of getting him hot and bothered........look at him seductively, send him a lot of e-mails, with just a touch of flirtation, text him etc. become best friends with his wife...........
yesterday he e-mailed me back basically saying he was surprised by my intentions, that he thought of me only as a friend, that it can't go any further, that he loves his wife and he is intent on fixing any difficulty they may be having.......
I felt like someone stabbed me a thousand times in the moments I was reading that e-mail.......I felt like I wanted to throw up.....felt so exposed and raw, and humiliated and naive and abandoned, sweating, asslike, so toxic ----especially compared to him, who so eloquently and decently stated reality to me!!!!
this is not the first time I've played with lives so carelessly like this......
now I'm just glad that I've not e-mailed him for just over 24 hours.......
yesterday he e-mailed me back basically saying he was surprised by my intentions, that he thought of me only as a friend, that it can't go any further, that he loves his wife and he is intent on fixing any difficulty they may be having.......
I felt like someone stabbed me a thousand times in the moments I was reading that e-mail.......I felt like I wanted to throw up.....felt so exposed and raw, and humiliated and naive and abandoned, sweating, asslike, so toxic ----especially compared to him, who so eloquently and decently stated reality to me!!!!
this is not the first time I've played with lives so carelessly like this......
now I'm just glad that I've not e-mailed him for just over 24 hours.......
