Post by rio6789 on Nov 10, 2009 8:53:52 GMT -8
OK......so, it has been 4.5 days of NC with current PoA.......
last night, I dreamt about the one I've held a torch for the longest--almost 20yrs--my high school boyfriend......we broke up after 1 yr. of dating in high school bc, I cheated on him (surprise, surprise)......WORST break up ever for me........wanted him to take me back sooooooooooooooo badly, wanted him to forgive me, give me a second chance, but it never happened.......I felt like a total adulteress, thought I should be wearing the scarlet letter 'A' on my chest (we were reading that book in high school at the time).....
so, my dreams always are about him ALMOST taking me back, or kind of, but it still never works out........
anyway, I also just saw this PoA at our 20th high school reunion, 2 months ago, and, was actually having issues with another PoA (perhaps one I made up to try and transfer from my current one?) this one is another classmate of ours, who is married also, and with whom I developed a pseudo-contact bc I was the one planning our reunion (what a coincidence!!!!!----now I see that I was probably feeding my disease!!!!!) and to whom I sent a TOTALLY inappropriate e-mail after the reunion.......
sigh......
too many PoAs!!!!!!!!!!
thoughts?
thanks a million
last night, I dreamt about the one I've held a torch for the longest--almost 20yrs--my high school boyfriend......we broke up after 1 yr. of dating in high school bc, I cheated on him (surprise, surprise)......WORST break up ever for me........wanted him to take me back sooooooooooooooo badly, wanted him to forgive me, give me a second chance, but it never happened.......I felt like a total adulteress, thought I should be wearing the scarlet letter 'A' on my chest (we were reading that book in high school at the time).....
so, my dreams always are about him ALMOST taking me back, or kind of, but it still never works out........
anyway, I also just saw this PoA at our 20th high school reunion, 2 months ago, and, was actually having issues with another PoA (perhaps one I made up to try and transfer from my current one?) this one is another classmate of ours, who is married also, and with whom I developed a pseudo-contact bc I was the one planning our reunion (what a coincidence!!!!!----now I see that I was probably feeding my disease!!!!!) and to whom I sent a TOTALLY inappropriate e-mail after the reunion.......
sigh......
too many PoAs!!!!!!!!!!
thoughts?
thanks a million
