Post by godsguy on Dec 16, 2009 22:06:02 GMT -8
Hi! Everyone. I finally have a comp. now. I guess I am back.
My divorce has been finalized and I am finding it very difficult to pick up the pieces and move on.
I find it very hard to forgive my X, myself, and all those involved in the destruction of my marriage, although I know my unhealthy addiction and attachment played a major role in the destruction of it.
I desire so much to turn back the clock and have things back the way they were, but I know I can't. I would only have to go through the pain all over again, although it is still there. It feels more than I can bear at times, but I am getting stronger.
I don't, so much, desire to have her back as much as I desire to have the relationship and my family back, so I guess that makes me a relationship addict.
Still I have a torch constantly burning in my heart for her and us as a couple. Our children were so happy, I was so happy, and everyone envied our family and our closeness.
I think I am just so angry at her for ending it and also the fact that she has been with so many men since we split, but I still don't think I will ever lose feelings for her.
My divorce has been finalized and I am finding it very difficult to pick up the pieces and move on.
I find it very hard to forgive my X, myself, and all those involved in the destruction of my marriage, although I know my unhealthy addiction and attachment played a major role in the destruction of it.
I desire so much to turn back the clock and have things back the way they were, but I know I can't. I would only have to go through the pain all over again, although it is still there. It feels more than I can bear at times, but I am getting stronger.
I don't, so much, desire to have her back as much as I desire to have the relationship and my family back, so I guess that makes me a relationship addict.
Still I have a torch constantly burning in my heart for her and us as a couple. Our children were so happy, I was so happy, and everyone envied our family and our closeness.
I think I am just so angry at her for ending it and also the fact that she has been with so many men since we split, but I still don't think I will ever lose feelings for her.
