Post by godsguy on Dec 25, 2009 23:55:07 GMT -8
When all of your self-esteem and meaningful purpose depends on someone besides self, it is not SELF-esteem, it is someone-else-esteem.
Since the loss of my relationship, I have felt worthless, unloved, rejected, etc. My self-esteem and self-love have diminished not just since the destruction of the marriage, but throughout the course of the relationship.
I am learning to love myself and find my confidence in my God. I am learning that my life is not about me, what I want, my selfish desires, and doing what pleases me.
I am learning my talents, my dreams my goals, my desires for my life as a whole, but i'm learning that they are the same as my talents and strengths.
I got into a career in diesel mechanics 15 years ago, not
because I dreamed it, pursued it, studied it, worked hard for it, and kept growing in it. NO! I actually hate it. I got into it by accident. I started doing simple maintenance on weekends, learned by trial, error, and experience, and made an OK career out of it.
I have reached a point in my life where I want to pursue my dreams at whatever it costs. I am going after it. I have a talent for music and singing, and I have a burning desire to make a career out of it. I am going to get an education in music, work hard to obtain my goals and obtain some sort of music/singing career so I can fulfill the purpose I was designed for. It must be what I was meant to do, otherwise I would not have been given those talents to build and develop.
On another note, I want to fulfill God's purpose also, because as I said, it's not about what I want; It's not about me. So my type
of career will be in telling others about him and his word, through music and song. I believe this is where I will find myself, self-love, confidence through him, fulfill my true purpose, and truly have real peace.
"THE SPIRIT IS WILLING, BUT THE FLESH IS WEAK!
Pray for me.
Since the loss of my relationship, I have felt worthless, unloved, rejected, etc. My self-esteem and self-love have diminished not just since the destruction of the marriage, but throughout the course of the relationship.
I am learning to love myself and find my confidence in my God. I am learning that my life is not about me, what I want, my selfish desires, and doing what pleases me.
I am learning my talents, my dreams my goals, my desires for my life as a whole, but i'm learning that they are the same as my talents and strengths.
I got into a career in diesel mechanics 15 years ago, not
because I dreamed it, pursued it, studied it, worked hard for it, and kept growing in it. NO! I actually hate it. I got into it by accident. I started doing simple maintenance on weekends, learned by trial, error, and experience, and made an OK career out of it.
I have reached a point in my life where I want to pursue my dreams at whatever it costs. I am going after it. I have a talent for music and singing, and I have a burning desire to make a career out of it. I am going to get an education in music, work hard to obtain my goals and obtain some sort of music/singing career so I can fulfill the purpose I was designed for. It must be what I was meant to do, otherwise I would not have been given those talents to build and develop.
On another note, I want to fulfill God's purpose also, because as I said, it's not about what I want; It's not about me. So my type
of career will be in telling others about him and his word, through music and song. I believe this is where I will find myself, self-love, confidence through him, fulfill my true purpose, and truly have real peace.
"THE SPIRIT IS WILLING, BUT THE FLESH IS WEAK!
Pray for me.