Post by dragongirl4040 on Sept 14, 2009 14:23:29 GMT -8
I wish I could die so I dont hurt people anymore. I dont wanna hurt either. I just hurt people no matter how hard I try. I love this guy but he's moved on and im still in the same place i was a year ago. I tried to move fast and had too much baggage no wonder he left. I still love him though he is the sweetest guy I know. I had to report animal services on my uncle for neglecting his dog and now my grandma hates me as does the rest of my family. I lost my job. I wanna die. The pain is too much. Its hard to get out of bed in the morning. Noone loves me. Noone will care when im gone so whats the point?
Hang in there dragongirl! There are many people here on this forum who know how you feel and want to be there and support you. If you feel that you are overwhelmed by these feelings get help from a professional as quickly as possible. Know that 'This too shall pass!" and you will eventuallly be able to deal with these feelings and thoughts and grow through it all.
"Love doesn't have to hurt - If someone loves you, it should feel like they love you!"
Right now you are in a lot of pain. Sometimes the pain we feel is so great that we feel the only solution is just to die. Sometimes the things that happen in our lives feel overwhelming and too hard to deal with. And sometimes we blame ourselves for things that aren't completely our fault.
I know how you are feeling because I've felt the same way. During a very bad year even getting out of bed in the morning seemed to be too much, too difficult. I kept wondering why no one loved me? Why did I just keep making mistakes? Why should I even go on?
But dragongirl there is a way out. Not in ending your life but in really living. You did what you felt was right concerning your uncle's dog. That takes bravery and courage and strength. You also reached out and posted this message when you felt so bad.
Keep coming here, reading the information and posting. Keep reaching out. We are all here for you.
Last Edit: Sept 15, 2009 6:14:01 GMT -8 by bushbiyu
Post by staystrong on Sept 15, 2009 8:12:31 GMT -8
I can feel your pain through the computer screen...it hurts bad.
Please be sure to surround yourself with some support. A good friend, or any supportive family members. I also think it would be wise to have the number of a therapist or hotline handy when you really feel that there is no way out.
I know that right now you cannot see that it can get any better. Your brain is depressed and you will see everything from that point of view. Just hang in there. make yourself eat and do something everyday...especially when you don't want to. It will get better.