Post by roz2008 on Jan 3, 2010 18:33:26 GMT -8
I'm typing this from a hotel room in San Diego. I'm on the 14th floor with a beautiful view of downtown and the harbor. I took my kids on a 2 day excursion, which included a visit to their father/my former husband.
He's got another kid now and a life of his own. He gives our kids no attention; I brought them to meet their half brother. He met us and took us out to lunch. It was very pleasant.
The last days of our marriage were not so pleasant. Our marriage was not so pleasant. He progressed in to his addiction which left him sick and unemployable. Those were very difficult days.
Yesterday he was sober, awake and alert. He reminded me of the person I fell in love with more than 20 years ago. Today while at the zoo, I started to feel some remorse about why his disease took over and ruined our marriage. I did a lot of thinking about him. We are not compatible. I've gone on with my life and along with God's help, made it a dandy.
But yes, I am feeling. Wishing he was still the person I met all those years ago.
Reality thinking is appropriate here.
Thanks for letting me express my feelings.
He's got another kid now and a life of his own. He gives our kids no attention; I brought them to meet their half brother. He met us and took us out to lunch. It was very pleasant.
The last days of our marriage were not so pleasant. Our marriage was not so pleasant. He progressed in to his addiction which left him sick and unemployable. Those were very difficult days.
Yesterday he was sober, awake and alert. He reminded me of the person I fell in love with more than 20 years ago. Today while at the zoo, I started to feel some remorse about why his disease took over and ruined our marriage. I did a lot of thinking about him. We are not compatible. I've gone on with my life and along with God's help, made it a dandy.
But yes, I am feeling. Wishing he was still the person I met all those years ago.
Reality thinking is appropriate here.
Thanks for letting me express my feelings.