Post by torchiere on Feb 11, 2010 22:56:28 GMT -8
I had two victories this month that have given me hope for my recovery.
My job requires me to cast a lot of attractive male models, and I have a problem with thinking certain ones are flirting me. I mistake their actions for seduction and then I zoom off immediately into fantasizing about them. The best looking one I've ever hired came in for 2 jobs over the last couple of weeks and was very chatty and friendly with me, but I left it at that: He was just being friendly. I decided to look at the facts only, and to not read any romantic intention into his actions. I gave no fuel to the fantasy fire and I feel so proud of myself for not getting scorched.
My sister has also been trying to get a guy friend of hers to fix me up with his single friend. I contacted my sister's friend directly and told him no thanks. I explained to him that I am not capable of starting even a casual dating relationship with anyone. This is contrary to what I used to do - just desperately jump at any man and cling to him for dear life. I know I'm not healthy enough to be with anybody right now, and it makes me stronger to be independent and not frantically try to latch onto a man.
I'm feeling stronger every day - not so weak, clingy and desperate - but I know it's one day at a time.
My job requires me to cast a lot of attractive male models, and I have a problem with thinking certain ones are flirting me. I mistake their actions for seduction and then I zoom off immediately into fantasizing about them. The best looking one I've ever hired came in for 2 jobs over the last couple of weeks and was very chatty and friendly with me, but I left it at that: He was just being friendly. I decided to look at the facts only, and to not read any romantic intention into his actions. I gave no fuel to the fantasy fire and I feel so proud of myself for not getting scorched.
My sister has also been trying to get a guy friend of hers to fix me up with his single friend. I contacted my sister's friend directly and told him no thanks. I explained to him that I am not capable of starting even a casual dating relationship with anyone. This is contrary to what I used to do - just desperately jump at any man and cling to him for dear life. I know I'm not healthy enough to be with anybody right now, and it makes me stronger to be independent and not frantically try to latch onto a man.
I'm feeling stronger every day - not so weak, clingy and desperate - but I know it's one day at a time.
