I have to say, after leaving God in the dust and trying to deal with my emotional problems and love addiction myself for years without including god, and the enriching strength it has given me to go back to God the past year and a half.... it is a huge difference. I started out going back to church because I hit rock bottom and realized I could not handle my addiction on my oun, It didn't happen over night... but after going to some retreats and surrendering myself to a higher power, things are getting better slowly and are much more meaningful to me. I have a new sense of self worth and know that God made me special, as he did every one of us. For a purpose and I also found that even though I feel the "need" to have love from someone give me my identity and my survival..... I don't NEED it from a specific person.... I get my validation and my needs met by God. I know a lot of times it isn't the same, and I still have days where I feel abandoned and useless and need people to make me feel like I am worth anything.... but it is a work in progress and going back to my faith makes a huge difference in my healing, a slow and positive work in progress.
Post by walkingonwater on Feb 18, 2010 13:37:39 GMT -8
Totally relate to that. I feel that it is when I'm really seeking God that I become sane again (I might be a bit crazy and full of the Spirit but sane nonetheless!!)
Also I think parts of the Bible really heal me... and draw me to God.
Have had a much better couple of weeks and that's all down to dedicating my life to God fully (step 3!)
Am also seeing past POAs as not God's will - it was just my choice. I could have avoided it but I chose to smoke the crack, even though I knew it probably wasn't good for me (just hoped it'd be different). Didn't really know any better to be fair but am taking more responsibility for the chaos of my love life.