I was friends with my POA from September to December of 2008. Only four months. Almost a year and half later, I still think about him everyday. I'm doing much better now. I can live a pretty normal life and thoughts of him tend to be brief, but I still fall into mourning the loss of my fantasy.
I've stopped cyber-snooping; don't go to places we've been; blocked his ability to contact me; got rid of poems about him, pictures and correspondence...I think the next step that I've been putting off is removing the music from my computer that reminds me of him because it puts me into my mourning.
Sounds like a great step! It makes me so sad to know how much hurt people go through with this addiction. I just feel very sad that there is so much mourning. I know for me I'm just grieving my old wounds, but wow, there are a lot of them to feel. Sending everyone with this condition lots of gentleness and kindness and compassion in your journey. It takes great courage to turn away from fantasy and embrace the pain. P.
Last Edit: Apr 20, 2010 11:56:40 GMT -8 by primrose
Only the ego can struggle, the soul lives in ease and joy.