to feel better

last night I went to a party and he was there. I said hello, how are you, and goodbye - my total comments throughout the evening. I went home and cried and cried. Today he came over to pick up some tools that he left at my house.
I gave him his things, said politely that I had been wrong to chase him the way I did, that I had loved him and I knew that it was not the "right way" or in a healthy way, that the way he treated me left me feeling very bad, that I have worth, and that I think it would be best to not see his face or hear his voice again because when I do, it harms me.
Then it felt still and silent and I believe that I am truly at step 2. willing in thought and action to have God restore me to sanity. He is gone, a few moments into my past.
That raises my self esteem. I treated myself like a woman in recovery today. I deleted his numbers and addresses. I am at a friends to have dinner. I am not crying now. I am esteeming myself by sharing my recovery with you and strengthening myself by reading about yours.
I love you all.
bluebird.

Bluebird that was AWESOME!!

Thank you for sharing this. It is a beautiful thing when we do esteemable things for ourselves.

Keep doing what you're doing.

What an inspiration!