Post by lacypooh on Oct 13, 2010 11:55:55 GMT -8
Today while working the steps, I was overcome with gratitude. Although this journey is at times overwhelmingly painful, I know this is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I know that I am on the right path, I know that I am headed towards freedom and for that I am so grateful. Sometimes I feel like why didn't my HP just create me the way I need to be, why would I have to go through all that I've been through first. And it hit me! I will be able to be a walking testimony giving hope to others because if I didn't have these problems, my HP wouldn't be able to help turn things around.But there are people who have watched me suffer, watched me not really live or enjoy my life and those same people will see me come through this journey, a new creation and they will wonder, what happened? And I will be able to stand before them and say my HP restored me, my HP did this for me, and if he can restore ME, he can surely restore YOU!!!
So yes, I am grateful, I am grateful for all the horrible love affairs, the abuse as a child, the isolation, the low self esteem, the physical and mental pain, the depression, the men who used me, the one who raped me, the ones who toyed with me and led me on, I am grateful for it all, because in the end, it will all be for my good. I'm grateful to my HP for not giving up on me, for answering me when I cried out for help. I'm grateful to have a chance to really live. I know I have a long way to go, and i have a lot of work to do, but I'm grateful to finally know what work to do and what steps to take to heal.
So yes, I am grateful, I am grateful for all the horrible love affairs, the abuse as a child, the isolation, the low self esteem, the physical and mental pain, the depression, the men who used me, the one who raped me, the ones who toyed with me and led me on, I am grateful for it all, because in the end, it will all be for my good. I'm grateful to my HP for not giving up on me, for answering me when I cried out for help. I'm grateful to have a chance to really live. I know I have a long way to go, and i have a lot of work to do, but I'm grateful to finally know what work to do and what steps to take to heal.