God has opened my eyes to a most ugly and awful trait of mine. I am glad for it though. So this will sort of be like adding on to my step 4 and 5 lists and confessing it.
I have noticed I have this bad habit of blaming my faults on something or someone else. Its so ingrained that it has become habit. It happens at work a lot too. I will say that many people in my field do the same but it still doesnt make it right.
If I make a mistake I will blame it on anything or anyone except myself. LIke if I make a mistake at work its the equipment's fault or someone elses fault. Same with at home. And if I dont feel like doing something I will find some naive excuse to get out of it rather than doing it or just saying that I am not going to do it because I just dont want to.
Such as if I have to lead a kayak trip or hike. I will come up with some excuse to get out of it if I dont feel like going. Such as a sore leg (long term injury I have), or say my daughter is sick or some other excuse. I know somethings I dont have to explain, ex. "I am sorry I just cant make it today". But thats even better than making up an excuse.
I need to start owning up to my mistakes and my reasons to get out of things. Its all new to me. But I am grateful for God bringing this to my attention'
"Nothing in life worth having ever comes easy" Bob Kelso