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Post by Susan Peabody on May 6, 2011 17:39:15 GMT -8
Your inner child is your addict. Officially known as the "child ego state" it resides in a place in the brain.
Anything can trigger the appearance of the inner child. He/She appears as emotions, thoughts, or behavior.
What do you do with the inner child?
Through conversations, also known as self-talk, (in conjunction with an image of your child which you make after your first attempt to contact his/her through meditation or imagery), you give him/her the love and guidance she/he did not get as a child.
You hug your IC You reassure your IC You set limits with your IC You play with your IC
Add to this list from your own experiences . . .
You do everything with him/her that you would do to your own child with am emphasis on guidance and nurturning.
Does the wounded inner child heal? No . . . but once you find her or him, he/she will have years of happiness with you in her corner. Together you can do anything.
My inner child . . .
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Post by Bo on May 7, 2011 3:53:51 GMT -8
Wow! I just had this same realization...just this morning while kinda meditating, I saw my Inner Child standing a little ways in front of me. She turned sideways to look at me, and I called her because I knew she was just standing there so confused by all the "Adult Choices" surrounding her. I wanted her to come to me, so I reached out for her. I realized she was like an energy illusion, or like a ghost made of shimmering fairy dust when I hugged her, she kinda dissolved into me. [hard to really describe]
I got this same realization: "together we can do anything", and now I am reading it here on your post just a few hours later. The thing is, with this realization, I also got really afraid. I'm afraid of the possibilities, I'm afraid of just the two of us going it alone. Yes, I Believe and I know for sure, there's nothing we can't do…”together”. But this freedom is scary today. I'm afraid of the Power. All these years, there's always been someone controlling us, telling us what to do, guiding us, feeding us the answers. Now "together" there’s so much we can do.
It's Scary! Thanks so much for confirming my vision today. I've been such a big ol' 'fraidy cat, all my life. Cowardly letting my Inner Child lead us...maybe today will be a turning point if I can just hold on to this strength and REALization.
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Post by overcomer on May 7, 2011 7:30:27 GMT -8
Thanks so much for this great info! You are a gifted writer! Keep it up!
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Post by Recovering on May 7, 2011 20:15:25 GMT -8
Thank you so much for sharing this with us, Susan. Recently my H.P. has been bringing a similar message into my life. That my depression is closely related to my emotions addictions and i need to deal it through E.A.
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Post by caroclean on May 29, 2011 6:58:25 GMT -8
Hello everyone ... I am glad to have the opportunity of sharing my experience. I read the comments about the inner child ... and I never realized this. Well, I know I have a child with me and sometimes she goes out and do wrong decisions. I just think that although it is probably that I will live with my inner child, I know that I have the change to take better decisions for my life. That is what I am working on it. It has been very difficult to understand me and to know me. I know that I will know parts of me that all my live I have hide from myself and the other ones. But I am going to do my best to get healthier every day. Thank you so much ... thank you for being there because I know that I am not alone
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Post by soulseeker on May 29, 2011 8:53:51 GMT -8
Welcome Caroclean,
Glad you have found the board and the info about inner child work.
There is so much here to read and learn. You can post your story in the newcomers thread if you would like to.
Post often and best to you on the journey of recovery.
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Post by Herenow on May 30, 2011 6:37:06 GMT -8
I have been working with my IC for a while. She originally came to me as a sweet little 4 year old, this is when I was doing mostly codependent recovery work, I hadn't started working with my love addiction. Anyway about 2 1/2 years ago as I really started to grasp the depth of my LA I did a meditation and I ran into a part of me, an inner child part, that was like a street urchin. She was about 8 or 9 years old, wild angry, unkempt, not clean, matted hair, wearing rags and was hiding in a cave. She wouldn't talk to me, and she didn't trust me. Why would she? I had clearly ignored her for many years! After a while she was willing to walk out of the cave with me and we have been moving towards the light ever since. She is still quite shy, but loves wearing dresses, eating ice cream and is finally sleeping.... In my heart of hearts she is my addict child.
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Post by caroclean on Jun 27, 2011 7:18:30 GMT -8
beautiful
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Post by Bo on Jun 27, 2011 10:09:24 GMT -8
I've just started more Inner Child Therapy (as Tizzy speaks highly of-Thanks), and realized that I have another Inner Child fueling my addictive behaviors. This girl is a part of me around 15 years old, but she's been lost, ignored, and abandoned. I found her today.
She's the one who acts out when my back is turned away; she's the one who clings to any man who will give her attention, Intrigue coaxes her out of hiding, she moves quickly, before I can get ahold of her. She's been abandoned for so long, she doesn't think anyone really knows whats best for her, she makes alot of mistakes. She needs my (Adult Me in Recovery) guidance and nurturing.
I am working on a relationship with her now. I love her no matter what she's done in the past and I'm here now to take care of her. Bo was the first child I found, now this one, her name is Oh, short for Ophelia.
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Post by lacypooh on Jun 30, 2011 15:26:41 GMT -8
I realize there are different ages for our inner child, today I realized i have three dominant age groups- one seems to be around 3 or so years old. She has big dow eyes and full of innocent glee. She is happily helpless and looks to authority figures for approval and comfort. She is happy go lucky, always smiling, always cheerful, always humming a pleasant tune. She loves the spotlight, and making people laugh.
Somewhere in there is the nervous one, she is always second guessing herself and becomes so nervous when faced with a task--any task even those she does often that she can't concentrate--she automatically becomes anxious & self conscious making it hard to function. Authority figures, namely adult women make her even more nervous. She is extremely timid, and hates the spotlight. I have no idea how old she is, she is the one present the most.
Next is the adolescent me. She is the "mean" one, she's been hurt and she knows it. She can shut off her emotions in an instant, and rarely smiles. She is very stand offish and doesn't trust people her age. She isn't intimidated by authority figures- infact, she doesn't like them, she has a major attitude against them. She is the pesimist and thinks everyone has a hidden agenda and is full of sh*t. She has a chip on her shoulder and everyone else is at fault for her problems. She stays isolated and pushes people away who get to close to her. Her appearance is dirty and unkept ( like that of a homeless person) she has a lot of pain but it is all hidden behind angst. I think this is how I behave when I am dating( depending on the guy). She's the only one I've actually enviosiones clearly. The other two or more faint in terms of their appearance, but some how I still came to recognize them and the youngest one looks nothing like me. But this adolescent one looks exactly the way I looked at that age. Sometimes I see her as I am now. Whenever I see her she is sitting behind a shelf in my 7th grade science class. She has one leg bent, and one straight out. Whenever ( I, the current me) comes to visit her she shows no emotion, no reaction, she slightly looks over and then goes back to looking straight forward. She wouldn't talk to me at all when I first start my IC work, but it has improved. She hugged me once and it resulted in me crying hysterically while "holding her".
More recently, the one i feel most is the "helpless me" she is so scared of all the challenges and changes around her, especially at work--she always looks for someone to assure her or tell her that she can do it.
I don't know how to reach that one--she is the most afraid. I want her to know that everything is ok--I need to work more on parenting her and letting her know that the adult me needs to be in control at work, so i function.
This IC stuff is hard to explain without sounding like there's multiple personalities---thank goodness i have you guys to talk about this with. Everyone else would assume i was crazy!
Anyway, any tips for parenting or guiding my IC to be less timid and fearful acting at work???
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Post by mgb on Jun 30, 2011 15:46:53 GMT -8
Pretty I have those same IC personalitys too! thanks for writing it down it helps me to understand her much better, I could have wrote that you know Wow I think you and I are very similar in most ways , keep sharing I love your posts, and welcome back. Blessings to you pretty wings. Mgb.
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Post by lacypooh on Jun 30, 2011 18:35:08 GMT -8
Hey mgb, how are you?!
Thanks for your response, yeah we to seem to be similar lol but this has been the first time i've been able to put my IC into words, it all became so clear to me this week while facing some things at work. Once it became clearer I rushed here to share it lol
How have you been?
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Post by mgb on Jul 1, 2011 6:33:27 GMT -8
I am good pretty, Back in recovery and back on track, meetings 2 days a week and feeling fine! I just sold my house and just started a full time job too, it's hard to find balance sometimes, at it but I am getting there. Thanks again for the inner child share. I went out walking today and my inner child loves crunching through leaves in gum boots in the afternoon sun, and smelling flowers, feeling the breeze on her neck, at least thats what she told me! So good to see you here darlin, blessings to you today, dear. Mgb.
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Post by lacypooh on Jul 2, 2011 11:00:00 GMT -8
No problem, think you for reading/responding! Your walk sounds excellent, I totally pictured a little girl walking through the leaves in gum books, what an awesome discovery! I'm glad you're back to recovery, I will start my CoDa meets again soon, just waiting to see what my work schedule will be now that I'm officially out of training.
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Post by orangeflowergirl on Dec 18, 2011 18:25:59 GMT -8
This thread has brought me to tears. My inner child is lost and frightened somewhere. How can I find her? :-(
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Post by bulletproofsoul on Mar 26, 2013 4:35:41 GMT -8
Hi Susan. Thank you for having this section. I'm new here and very scared. I've come a long way in recovery from trauma and addiction, but this is an area I haven't ventured into until now and it makes me cry instantly.
During my EMDR sessions with my therapist, I was first introduced to the concept of an inner child. When each session was concluding, she would have me hug and comfort my inner child. It felt kind of good but not whole hearted. If you read my introduction post you'll understand why I keep so much bottled up inside.
No one has responded to me yet, and I'm not sure what to make of this place. I'd like to think I'm on the right track.
Thanks again.
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Post by Loving My Life on Mar 26, 2013 4:56:39 GMT -8
Welcome bulletproofsoul,
I believe you are on the right track with your recovery, and I see you do have a lot of trauma and addiction you are dealing with. I do believe you need to keep working with your therapist when you are doing your inner child work, it will bring up a lot of pain from our childhood, and we need our therapist to guide us gently through this process, depending on how deep our wounds are...so I believe this is a good start.
Yes doing inner child work can be scary, but once we start to face our pain, and work through all of the painful memories, we can begin to understand and heal our pain, and we also learn how to reparent our inner child.
You can also use this forum for support, everyone on this forum are dealing with different love addictions issues, and someone who can relate to what you are going thru will offer suggestions to you.
Are you also trying to go to any Codependent meetings in your area? I believe you had mentioned you thought you were Codependent? This is be very helpful as well. It teaches us how to detach with love, and it teaches we have no control over people, places, and things. We are only responsible for ourselves, we can not save the world.
We all glad your here, you will find a lot of knowledge and support on this forum.
Keep coming back.
Again welcome
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Post by bulletproofsoul on Mar 27, 2013 5:38:20 GMT -8
Welcome bulletproofsoul, I believe you are on the right track with your recovery, and I see you do have a lot of trauma and addiction you are dealing with. I do believe you need to keep working with your therapist when you are doing your inner child work, it will bring up a lot of pain from our childhood, and we need our therapist to guide us gently through this process, depending on how deep our wounds are...so I believe this is a good start. Yes doing inner child work can be scary, but once we start to face our pain, and work through all of the painful memories, we can begin to understand and heal our pain, and we also learn how to reparent our inner child. You can also use this forum for support, everyone on this forum are dealing with different love addictions issues, and someone who can relate to what you are going thru will offer suggestions to you. Are you also trying to go to any Codependent meetings in your area? I believe you had mentioned you thought you were Codependent? This is be very helpful as well. It teaches us how to detach with love, and it teaches we have no control over people, places, and things. We are only responsible for ourselves, we can not save the world. We all glad your here, you will find a lot of knowledge and support on this forum. Keep coming back. Again welcome Thank you so much for responding. It just feels good to know someone is here listening. My therapist released me from care about a year and a half ago, and I don't attend any local codependent meetings. I live in a fairly remote location and have an odd schedule as well. Online support is really my only option. Does anyone have suggestions for online codependent support?
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Post by purplegrunge on Jul 17, 2016 0:00:30 GMT -8
My inner child is not the addict. My inner child is carefree and happy and fearless. She is the one that gives me hope to live my life. She pulls me back when I get depressed and suicidal.
The addict was born when I was 17. I am 22 now and I want to be like my inner child. But I can't... can someone help me out?
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Post by Havefaith on Jul 17, 2016 17:47:36 GMT -8
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