Chrissy
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Post by Chrissy on Jun 22, 2011 15:42:23 GMT -8
I know that my low self esteem is the crux of my addiction- if fuels the fire and my acting out.
My life has been one heck of a ride...I manage to get through yet still don't allow myself credit for my part it in all.
I am working on seeing my worth- that I am a good person- that the extra pounds I carry do not determine the character I possess.
I am quick to praise others ecspecially men who are not worthy of it.
Its all stems from me wanting that praise myself. I didn't get any growing up- family were alcoholics and was abused mentally and sexually.. mother in and out of mental hospitals. It was a true mess.
But I almost 45 and I want to be proud of myself..finally.
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Post by sunflwrs4evr on Jun 22, 2011 19:24:35 GMT -8
hello Chrissy
I too struggle with low self esteem....at a big time in my life ..i had no self esteem....and now after coming to the boards..and sharing my experience....strength and hope...my self esteem is getting higher and higher...I can only do this one day at a time....thats true that the extra pounds that are being carried doesn not determine worth...its just more for us to love about ourselves....Sorry to hear alittle bit about your abusive childhood....its sad...because we definitely deserve the best....and now is the time to learn how to do that....that is what recovery is all about....for me its starts and continues with acceptance...and boy i struggle with acceptance....i have to let go and let God....do for me what i cannot do for myself....keep posting....and sharing and talking....there are lots of self esteem posts you could read....I have lots of them posted in some of my rooms in my house...and i read them everyday.....Sun:)
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Chrissy
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Post by Chrissy on Jun 28, 2011 9:54:01 GMT -8
I am a work in progress, seeing that the job I am in now being a nurse is helping with the self esteem.. I see that even if its something small I am making a difference in someones life.
I also see that the men I put before me was indeed a need for validation something that had been not present growing up.
I will never get that validation from my parents, my mother commited suicide years ago and my dad is an alcoholic.
The power within myself is stronger than I allow myself to accept.
The energy I have to connect to others is real.
I have much to offer others and to myself.
Its hard for me to recognize that thru all the turmoil my life has challenged me with I have emerged a strong, able and on my way to self confident woman..
need to stay true to that..
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Post by brooklynberry on Jun 28, 2011 10:21:07 GMT -8
esteemable acts lead to self esteem!
congrats!
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