Post by karenfakeparker on Jun 25, 2011 15:28:29 GMT -8
My boyfriend broke up with me out of nowhere. I feel the most horrible feelings I've ever felt in my life. They are too intense. They are unbearable. The only thing I can imagine will make the feelings go away is us getting back together (not within my control), taking xanax which is addictive and suicide. I'll never feel as good or normal single as I do in a relationship.
Hi karenfakeparker ... for all of us is easier to think that killing ourselves would be an option when we are feeling a lot of pain. I noticed that we do not like to feel this feelings, they are awful and we think that anything would be better than feeling this, but I can tell you one thing, it always pass away.
I understand you, because my sick mind sometimes makes me think those things, but now that I have worked on that with a psychologist who I met in NA, every time that I think on that, I just ignore it, as I told you, it always pass away and you will start feeling better with a clearly mind. Anyways, I think that fighting with our feelings or thoughts is irrelevant and unnecessary.
Actually I am thinking that this kind of thoughts are normal in people who have addictions, I believe that is just learning to live with ourselves which includes our feelings and thoughts, anyway, that is what I have learned from my experience and on NA.
Have you try to go to a LAA (Love Addicts Anonymous) group, or a different fellowship where you can work the 12 steps?, I mean NA (Narcotics Anonymous) or AA group?
Last Edit: Jun 25, 2011 15:59:32 GMT -8 by caroclean