Post by gratefulheart on Dec 12, 2009 13:44:10 GMT -8
I have noticed as time has gone by that, i am very anxious during the day, just trying to be a "sober" person in the real world. i feel on edge and have a lot of anxiety.. like i need a fix.
It is something I am trying to work on but it's very difficult. i can be nervous and anxious doing the most mudane things.. as if it's going to break me and I feel like i'm always running, hurrying, my mind racing, throughout the day. my defenses are up, i'm irritable, i run dry easily. And its hard to feel normal when what has usually engaged me and calmed most of the time was ALL FANTASY.
I feel i've been so "sedated" in fantasy for so long that i've lost touch with the ability to stand alone, as an adult and face the music, face the pain.. without running away or fantasizing like a little child.
Has anyone else felt this way? If so, do you feel it's getting better as you heal?
It is something I am trying to work on but it's very difficult. i can be nervous and anxious doing the most mudane things.. as if it's going to break me and I feel like i'm always running, hurrying, my mind racing, throughout the day. my defenses are up, i'm irritable, i run dry easily. And its hard to feel normal when what has usually engaged me and calmed most of the time was ALL FANTASY.
I feel i've been so "sedated" in fantasy for so long that i've lost touch with the ability to stand alone, as an adult and face the music, face the pain.. without running away or fantasizing like a little child.
Has anyone else felt this way? If so, do you feel it's getting better as you heal?
