Post by geedee on Mar 27, 2010 6:04:12 GMT -8
having some horrible waves of fear and dread coming over me...
Spent yesterday at my in laws for a big family dinner. after lunch we were doing the dishes and a prog was on tv about panic attacks. One of my sisters in law has always suffered from depressiona nd she has become a bit of a recluse. we started talking about my own panic attacks and she mentioned that she realise she used to have panic attacks as a young girl...not being able to move in her bed and feeling pinned down and powerless...
She is not well educated and doesn't read much but she's a wise woman. as she left the kitchen she said there was some kind of childhood trauma but there's no way she can talk about it because of the scandal it would cause. My h, his sisters and brothers (6 of them) were left very much to their own devices all their lives....
ugh...have the feeling for the first time since I've known them that there are secrets hidden in their family. Too much resentment, envy and grudges amonst them that I could never explain to myself. I'm starting to wonder what happened but really don't want to know I dont think.
Spent yesterday at my in laws for a big family dinner. after lunch we were doing the dishes and a prog was on tv about panic attacks. One of my sisters in law has always suffered from depressiona nd she has become a bit of a recluse. we started talking about my own panic attacks and she mentioned that she realise she used to have panic attacks as a young girl...not being able to move in her bed and feeling pinned down and powerless...
She is not well educated and doesn't read much but she's a wise woman. as she left the kitchen she said there was some kind of childhood trauma but there's no way she can talk about it because of the scandal it would cause. My h, his sisters and brothers (6 of them) were left very much to their own devices all their lives....
ugh...have the feeling for the first time since I've known them that there are secrets hidden in their family. Too much resentment, envy and grudges amonst them that I could never explain to myself. I'm starting to wonder what happened but really don't want to know I dont think.
