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Post by sweetiepie on Mar 7, 2012 12:27:55 GMT -8
LONGING… I long for his attention and his love and everything he can give me. People tell me that there's nothing he can do for me that I can't do for myself, but that's not true. I can't do anything for myself. He is my world and my world is him... and without him, there is no world. My life feels like it is over. I want this to be over. I love him still. Even though I shouldn't and it is wrong, I don't care. I am in love and I cannot let go of him. I cannot let go of the past. I dread my now and long to live back in the past, where we loved eachother. Now it's just one-sided love, because he doesn't love me. I wish he did.
I wish we can get together again.
But because of the pain we've caused each other...
He's scared I will hurt him again...
Even though I won't…
And he has caused me more pain that I ever have caused him…
And besides, it is impossible for anyone to ever put him through more pain than he has put me through…
He’s hurt me too much…
It’s a battle between us…
And I surrender, because I hate these feelings…
I’m sorry…
But he’s not.
AFRAID… I’m afraid I will never get better. I am afraid I will be stuck with this pain forever.
And forever is a long time.
Forever…
Forever….
Forever…..
Forever……
Forever…….
Forever……..
Forever………
Forever……….
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