Post by winter on Sept 17, 2008 13:28:58 GMT -8
So I thought I was doing really good. Been with this guy for going on 2 months I guess. He treats me very nice but I am having trouble accepting him as he is. I know we are supposed to but I feel as though he needs to change for himself, not for me. He can't be happy in his situation and nor can I and its affecting "us".
Also the past week we have just been arguing and arguing. He doesn't listen in general ( not arguments) and I have explained many times about this and I feel like sometimes he is just an idiot.
Everything about him right now is pissing me off and annoying me.
I am beginning to give him attitude for no reason ( except my own)
and getting annoyed by the way he talks, things he does, moves he makes. I often get disgusted if he tried to touch me.
During sex I make him stop because I am just completely turned off.
I know I am ambivalent. I know I am an emotional annorexic and now I feel like perhaps I am becoming sexually anorexic too? Or is it because I have somewhat of an attachment to him that I am now turned off?!
All I know is I am getting annoyed and angry off but at the same time I do not want to lose him. I told him we had to slow down which got him annoyed because we only see each other once or twice a week. He agreed though.
However he will tell me about his day and I just get annoyed. Or he will be cheery or "playing around" and I get annoyed or angry.
I know a lot of it is me, but I know some of it is him, the way he does things. I want to learn to accept everything but many of these things I do not find acceptable. I don't want to ask him to "change" but if he can't even change for himself then we shouldn't be together.
I am trying to change myself for myself only and for any future potential relationships I am ever in if they ever happen.
I feel like he is not self aware and now that I am I almost feel like I am more intelligent them him and he is below me and I hate to do that to someone..
How do I get myself to accept some things, or how to not be so angry all the time. How do I stop disgusting him and his ways.
Why can't I be all crazy about him like he is me?
I make the poor guy cry cause I sometimes treat him like stuff.
He almost broke up with me the other night and no I don't blame him... but I don't know what to do!
I am so confused. So turned off , not only by him but in general and by most men. I feel like I am only getting worse and more anorexic with now everything!
Sometimes I feel like I know I am nuts and have issues... but what kind of guy would want me like this? How sick is he that he wants me regardless of how I often treat him?
Also the past week we have just been arguing and arguing. He doesn't listen in general ( not arguments) and I have explained many times about this and I feel like sometimes he is just an idiot.
Everything about him right now is pissing me off and annoying me.
I am beginning to give him attitude for no reason ( except my own)
and getting annoyed by the way he talks, things he does, moves he makes. I often get disgusted if he tried to touch me.
During sex I make him stop because I am just completely turned off.
I know I am ambivalent. I know I am an emotional annorexic and now I feel like perhaps I am becoming sexually anorexic too? Or is it because I have somewhat of an attachment to him that I am now turned off?!
All I know is I am getting annoyed and angry off but at the same time I do not want to lose him. I told him we had to slow down which got him annoyed because we only see each other once or twice a week. He agreed though.
However he will tell me about his day and I just get annoyed. Or he will be cheery or "playing around" and I get annoyed or angry.
I know a lot of it is me, but I know some of it is him, the way he does things. I want to learn to accept everything but many of these things I do not find acceptable. I don't want to ask him to "change" but if he can't even change for himself then we shouldn't be together.
I am trying to change myself for myself only and for any future potential relationships I am ever in if they ever happen.
I feel like he is not self aware and now that I am I almost feel like I am more intelligent them him and he is below me and I hate to do that to someone..
How do I get myself to accept some things, or how to not be so angry all the time. How do I stop disgusting him and his ways.
Why can't I be all crazy about him like he is me?
I make the poor guy cry cause I sometimes treat him like stuff.
He almost broke up with me the other night and no I don't blame him... but I don't know what to do!
I am so confused. So turned off , not only by him but in general and by most men. I feel like I am only getting worse and more anorexic with now everything!
Sometimes I feel like I know I am nuts and have issues... but what kind of guy would want me like this? How sick is he that he wants me regardless of how I often treat him?
