Post by ferre on Sept 28, 2012 22:34:52 GMT -8
I have been in recovery for codependency for over a year.
One area of my life i never talked about, my love relationships.
Simple because i never had one. I feel ashamed about it. Asking myself what is wrong.
Avoid annoying questions from friends and family.
Now I know that I am a love addict.
Most of the time i am extremely scared of intimacy. I abort new relationships within a few months.
Just because of extreme fear.
Only 4 times in my life i became close to someone. Someone out of my reach. They would become my best friends.
I would completely insanely forget about myself and the world around me.
I would become a personal servant. Physically, emotionally, spiritually for the other party.
Only for 1 of them i would also become a sexual servant.
3 of the previous relationships ended because the lifetime was finished or I stopped it.
The current one is about to stop. I lost myself completely. But now I found out about love addiction and i think it is a matter of time i step out of it.
I am not in recovery yet for love addiction.
But hopeful
One area of my life i never talked about, my love relationships.
Simple because i never had one. I feel ashamed about it. Asking myself what is wrong.
Avoid annoying questions from friends and family.
Now I know that I am a love addict.
Most of the time i am extremely scared of intimacy. I abort new relationships within a few months.
Just because of extreme fear.
Only 4 times in my life i became close to someone. Someone out of my reach. They would become my best friends.
I would completely insanely forget about myself and the world around me.
I would become a personal servant. Physically, emotionally, spiritually for the other party.
Only for 1 of them i would also become a sexual servant.
3 of the previous relationships ended because the lifetime was finished or I stopped it.
The current one is about to stop. I lost myself completely. But now I found out about love addiction and i think it is a matter of time i step out of it.
I am not in recovery yet for love addiction.
But hopeful
