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Post by redhead on Nov 30, 2012 8:40:48 GMT -8
I dreamt about him. I am on day 10 NC. I woke up feeling out of control, lonely and a tight tight feeling in my chest. I'm really hoping this is just due to withdrawal and will go away with time. I have been up and down in the past few days and trying to have faith. I am looking for a job with no luck and almost feel ignored by HP. Don't get me wrong, in my heart of hearts I know the universe is there and wanting only good for me, but right now it looks different and I feel scared.
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Post by Loving My Life on Nov 30, 2012 9:27:06 GMT -8
All of this is normal feelings, and you might be having a little panic attack, which will make all of this seem worse. Do you have a doctor? He could get you something to calm you down a little. If not maybe you can go to the health food store and find something natural, over the counter.
Now I am not a doctor, so please only take what you know is safe for you.
And I read a passage this morning and I wrote it down.."If you'll be patient & wait for your HP's timing, He will give you the desires of your heart..
And also say the Serenity Prayer.. God or HP grant me the serenity, to accept the things, I can not change,
The courage to change the things that I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference..
Because I used to worry about everything, and worry is not going to change anything, it is only going to make you feel worse.
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magickwomun
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"If you always do what you've always done, you will always get what you've always gotten".
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Post by magickwomun on Nov 30, 2012 10:02:49 GMT -8
Yes, all of this is typical and it will improve with time. Try to breath and be patient, you're doing well.
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Post by brainhealth on Nov 30, 2012 15:13:56 GMT -8
Redhead,
U are ain great company. We have all gone through this. It is very painful, but, I guarantee you that you will prevail. This is a like a spacial distortion in Star Trek, you are being buffetted, you have nightmares, you don't think that you will survive. But you know what, you will survive. You are a a beautiful child of the universe and you have a right to be here, to be heard, to be loved and to love. You must first start by learning to love yourself. There are plenty of resources you can read up upon on this board. But, we are all with you, feeling for you, loving you and willing you on. You will do it , I promise. keep posting.
Brainhealth
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Post by looking4direction on Dec 2, 2012 20:02:14 GMT -8
You are not alone.
I am glad you shared with us.
Keep coming here, reading, and sharing and healing.
You will be okay.
Carol
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Post by redhead on Dec 4, 2012 4:55:25 GMT -8
This is sneaky. I was doing and feeling better and bam I'm back to obsessive thinking. I realized talking about 'him' and everything involved makes me feel HORRIBLE! I think at least for now, one of my bottom lines will be telling anyone who mentions him, not to. I need to foocus on myself and when his name comes up its self loathing and chaos. He was an avoidant man and I read that they return to a relationship out of GUILT. I syarted obsessing as to him ever really wanting to be with me..I need to let go and let god *sigh*
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Post by Loving My Life on Dec 4, 2012 6:12:40 GMT -8
Red, this is what will happen, it happened to me many many times, and as we grow and get better, we sometimes want to tell our poa's...but what we have to remember is this our poa's are still the same, they have not changed, and probably have no desire to change, so as we get better, we just have to become aware of our triggers, and remember that is only our addictive thinking that is wanting us in pain, so sit thru it, and do the next best think.
You not crazy, what your feeling is normal. It is good you are noticing these things now.
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