Post by Deleted on Apr 2, 2013 12:52:18 GMT -8
feeling so weird the last couple of days, it started on sunday afternoon ...
The old sentiment that i'm worthless, don't have friends is playing relentless in my mind.
it paralyzes me and nothing I do is good enough. If I study, I could study harder, If I watch movies then I should socialize more,
when I see friends I afterwards worry that I didn't leave in time before they get sick of me.
when I feel insecure like that, I tend to have get scared of an impending war (civil or war-like situations) by my negative outlook on the European political situation.
When I'm more balanced it doesn't effect me as much..
a friend I saw yesterday is taking care of a puppy this week and playing with it, I realized how much I miss having physical contact, to just to exchange tenderness. (puppy love is the best next thing)
unfortunately I'm not friends with its owners
there are a couple of women that I try to hang out with and it feels like I keep asking to get together, and it rarely works.
On sunday I offered a girl new in town who kept telling me how much she wanted to meet new people, to meet up sometime .. and she was like
OHH HOW SWEEET I'll def get in touch! but didn't ask for my contacts
I do have friends, one actually bought a ticket today to come and visit next month for 2 days (but I haven't seen her in 2 years)
What I lack is people, who I like that I can hang out with on a regular basis.
The bad thing is that the more I get worked up, the less I'm open to meet interesting people.
for 7 months I've been single and I'm slowly starting to forgive myself for what I let happen in my last relationship. After that breakup I stumbled upon Love Addicts and worked it intensely
2 Days ago I was happy that I could think of him, without the stab of self-reproach/hate that used to cripple me emotionally until a few weeks ago.
I think I'm feeling terribly lonely at the moment and want to fill the hole with something.
A person, that I can confide in, that is with me, has time for me... likes me and I like him/her back
like a best friend, who gives me emotional stability, hugs with whom I can have interesting conversations.
The old sentiment that i'm worthless, don't have friends is playing relentless in my mind.
it paralyzes me and nothing I do is good enough. If I study, I could study harder, If I watch movies then I should socialize more,
when I see friends I afterwards worry that I didn't leave in time before they get sick of me.
when I feel insecure like that, I tend to have get scared of an impending war (civil or war-like situations) by my negative outlook on the European political situation.
When I'm more balanced it doesn't effect me as much..
a friend I saw yesterday is taking care of a puppy this week and playing with it, I realized how much I miss having physical contact, to just to exchange tenderness. (puppy love is the best next thing)
unfortunately I'm not friends with its owners
there are a couple of women that I try to hang out with and it feels like I keep asking to get together, and it rarely works.
On sunday I offered a girl new in town who kept telling me how much she wanted to meet new people, to meet up sometime .. and she was like
OHH HOW SWEEET I'll def get in touch! but didn't ask for my contacts
I do have friends, one actually bought a ticket today to come and visit next month for 2 days (but I haven't seen her in 2 years)
What I lack is people, who I like that I can hang out with on a regular basis.
The bad thing is that the more I get worked up, the less I'm open to meet interesting people.
for 7 months I've been single and I'm slowly starting to forgive myself for what I let happen in my last relationship. After that breakup I stumbled upon Love Addicts and worked it intensely
2 Days ago I was happy that I could think of him, without the stab of self-reproach/hate that used to cripple me emotionally until a few weeks ago.
I think I'm feeling terribly lonely at the moment and want to fill the hole with something.
A person, that I can confide in, that is with me, has time for me... likes me and I like him/her back
like a best friend, who gives me emotional stability, hugs with whom I can have interesting conversations.
