Trusting My HP Day By Day

dhafirah, what a beautiful insight you shared. Thank you. I hope you will share more.


Yes, part of trusting God is trusting and waiting for his perfect timing too. Since I trusted him for my job, I received more blessings and promotions. He knows much better than I do and only want what is best for his children.

My HP told me earlier to demonstrate His unconditional love and kindness to my brother. In effect, he said that in spite of my brother's selfish nature and heartless behavior, "give to him that very thing he denies you of in a much greater scale because I AM with you." So I did by His grace and out of my love and gratitude towards Him.


Then after that I attended a fellowship meeting. While we were singing praise and worship songs I felt so touched by my HP's unfailing love and faithfulness. That though there were/are people who may have abandoned or forsaken and hurt me, He remains the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. He never fails to lift me up in down times and guide me in every step of the way with His wisdom. His lovingkindness enables me to extend that kind of love even to selfish people when necessary.


So I felt the pain of losing my loved ones at the same time the heart-warming touch of my HP. I was close to tears while in worship but I distracted myself because I don't want to cry in public nor with any person. I said, "Sorry God, I don't want drama nor cry in the presence of anyone but you. So I intentionally distracted my attention away from that touching moment."


When I went home and could cry alone, I ended up rejoicing and celebrating instead my purposeful suffering and pain, the ability to remain strong and well by myself wherever I go, and the courage to leave my loved ones and comfort zones every now and then...That's for me what is trusting my HP day by day means.

The best time of my day is spending quiet time with my HP. His timeless words are effective for all seasons and situations. Before I thought Bible was boring and applicable only for ancient times. But now I discovered that it is actually very enriching, empowering, refreshing, and all so real. I love it. No wonder it is known as the greatest book of all time.

It is by faith and not by sight. So it depends on the faith of an individual. Moreover, it is a personal matter, choice, relationship with God. So whatever or whoever is your choice, is your personal right and decision alone. If someone can choose to drink a glass of iced tea while someone else a hot cup of tea or wants a coffee instead, it is none of our business. So how much more when it comes to your personal choice of spirituality? Anyways, ultimately, God knows who are his. Only he can judge us accurately. And we are saved through faith by grace alone so that no one can boast.


By the way, I heard someone preached about the following passage and apparently, it serves as a warning:


Revelation 3:15-16New International Version (NIV)

15 I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16 So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

I am so happy with my new found faith. The things I need to know can be found in the Bible. And only now, upon surrendering to God, I really started getting his message. Before I did not get it or him. Because I did not have personal relationship with him. It was just head knowledge and not experiential knowledge.


Below is an example of what I found as an answer to why there are people who want to focus more on their problems and magnify them, not seeing the solutions at hand or being offered to them. They would rather embrace a problem, addiction, abuse and would not let go, because getting out, getting healed, getting better...means taking responsibility, moving forward, and no more drama! Hah!


When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?” (John 5:6 NIV)


"Do You Want to Be Healed?"

By Jordan Davis

We've all heard it said, "There's no such thing as a dumb question."

I'm not so sure that's really the case. I have heard some dumb questions in my 28 years so far. (For example, "Do you know you're short?" I can't begin to tell you how many times I heard that one growing up.)


And then I grab my Bible and read through the stories of Jesus' life. To be honest, there are times I read the accounts of His curious interactions with people and wonder what was going through His mind when He posed questions to people.


One such story is found in the fifth chapter of John. You may have heard sermons preached on this passage. You may have even read this story yourself. Often this story is referred to as "The Healing at the Pool" or "Jesus Heals a Lame Man."


To begin with, this man was lame. And lame, in biblical times, wasn't a way of saying he wasn't cool. It means, in the most literal sense, this man could not walk. We discover he had been this way for 38 years. I don't believe wheelchairs had been invented yet. That means this man was dependent on the mercy of others.


We also find out he spent most of his time lying by the pool; however, he wasn't looking for a tan. He was hoping to be healed. And according to legend, this pool—the Pool of Bethesda—was known for its healing powers. The Bible tells us an angel would stir the waters of the pool at any random time and heal the first to enter. Every time the water was stirred, though, this lame man was pushed aside by those less lame (literally and figuratively).


But today will be different.


Enter Jesus.


Jesus opened His mouth and uttered what can only seem like one of those dumb questions I referred to earlier.


"Do you want to get well?"


Talk about a dumb question—every time I read this, I wonder what in the world Jesus was thinking. Then my mind wanders to the lame man, and I put myself in his shoes—er, I mean sandals. And I can't help but think that after laying there day in and day out, this man would have made some smart remark.


"No, Jesus, I can actually walk. My friends and family just carry me here so I can pick up the ladies. The sympathy card works wonders! ... Of course I want to be healed. I can't walk! I've been this way for 38 years!"


I tend to think there was more going on here than meets the eye. Given the fact that Jesus is God in the flesh and that circumstances made the answer to His question quite obvious, I can only conclude Jesus was talking about something not-so-obvious. You see, God doesn't ask us questions because He lacks information. He's omniscient.


Let's try to unpack this question by looking at it in a different light. Perhaps Jesus was digging deeper and asking things like: Do you really want things to change? Are you ready to leave behind all of the excuses? Can you handle the responsibilities that will become a regular part of your life now?


Being healed changes everything. Sometimes our healing comes with a price tag. The question then becomes, Are we willing to pay the cost? Are we willing to do what it takes? Often, I wonder if we want to be healed but aren't ready for the change that it brings.


Believe it or not, there are many people who do not want to be healed. Their ailments (physical, mental and emotional) have come to define them. They do not want divine help with their problems. They do not want to be helped out of their weakness. They are used to thriving on the sympathy and pity of others. They sometimes flee from assuming responsibility for their own lives. People will openly turn their backs on the deliverance offered them, all because of the responsibility that will come with it.


Maybe putting this into everyday scenarios makes this easier to grasp:


"Do you really want the responsibility of a promotion, or is it more comfortable to complain about your current workload and and money?"


"Are you willing to change your lifestyle habits, or will it take too much energy to quit your unhealthy routines?"


As Jesus points out in a roundabout way, you cannot help someone who doesn't want to be helped. So, the question remains: "Do you want to be healed?"

As soon as I wake up this morning, I knew I had to make a quick clarification...


Just want to make it clear that if my comments/posts sound strong or have different point of view from another member, it is nothing personal nor a personal attack. For I love the members and admin here and you are all excellent for me.


So my comment has everything to do with my own personal experience and/or professional training outside this board. Please don't ever take it personally or feel bad about it. I respect you all but having diversity of thought is healthy and beneficial too if we take it constructively. It helps us grow and be more creative. It challenges us to think more and see things in different light and find what works best for each one of us. Thank you.

Hey dhafirah,


Glad to see you back here. It's been a long time since I last heard from you. What's up?


I understood what you're saying here. In my most recent recovery boundary post, I also have removed some friends from my contact list. I haven't contacted them since then. So I am with you.


Thanks for your appreciation and for sharing your great insight too. I like reading your posts. I hope to hear more from you.


Happy New Year To You!

Dear loveellen,


I hear you...May I ask you a question first? Let's just say there's a wounded person who entered a hospital and was greeted by two nurses. The first nurse was standing tall, full of energy. While the second nurse was sitting down at the counter holding her stomach in pain...To whom do you think the wounded person went to? The first nurse (standing tall) or the second (sitting down in pain)? And why do you think so?

i ask you a quesiton, if a nurse who really cares you , loves you  and very smart and tried her best to helpe you in any way ,but jsut becasue she have somach pain....so you dump her? and delelte her becasue she is too nice to you???and shwo her weakness and too honest to you???

she is not perfect because she has stomach in pain though she deeply tried to help you and cares you???

that is ridiculos..i dont think you recovery very well in this part,

this program just teach us what love really is ,, not to show perfect or fantansty...perfec.t. that perfect is FAKE.

you look deeply about this,thank you!


i really dont think i can be full time sponsor, i have too much needed to be healed.. right..

"Not My Will, But His Will Be Done. Not by my strength, but by His power..."


I was planning to leave this forum the other day. But seems God has another plan and told me to love even those who may be unlovable to me. Love is the greatest gift. Not being right. Not being full of knowledge. But being humble (like Havefaith here), peaceful, gentle, kind (like Susan). And that as long as he is on my side and I am on his side nothing else really matters.


Also my HP told me to stop working so hard in the flesh. Because it never works that way. Only he has the power. Stop fighting by the flesh. For it is a spiritual warfare. And that my strength comes from him alone. Apart from him, I can do nothing.


Yes, indeed, after my abuses and having watched that film of Jodie Foster, "The Accused", I became more of a fighter. It's like I am always in a war or something. But with people around me, I am very loving that is why from my 1st client until now, I am able to maintain our good relationship. My friendship from way back 30 years ago is still warm and doing great.


I should surrender to my Hp and focus more on him; casting my cares upon him. Not counting on people or myself. People make mistakes. People come and go and change their minds constantly. One day, they would 'love' you but the next day when you do/say something they don't like, they would tear you to pieces. But "My love stays the same." And who are them compared to Me?" (My HP reminded me.)


Lastly, I am naturally rough and tough. It takes divine help to become soft and gentle. If for others like Jacarandagirl here, it is natural for them to be nice and gentle, it is not for me. In a sense, I am like the MMA undefeated fighter "Ronda Rousey". (The champ got booed at the weigh-ins, during her walk to the cage and through her prefight introduction. When she didn’t shake Tate’s hand after winning via third-round arm-bar submission, the din of the angry fans threatened to tear the roof off of MGM Grand Garden Arena. mmajunkie.com/2013/12/ufc-champ-ronda-rousey-is-the-villain-that-womens-mma-needs ) In addition, I have just gotten to a new level of faith with my HP last year. So I am still "under construction" and have a long way to go with many rough edges. But be patient, he is still working on me.


So as long as my HP permits me to come here and I have time, (by March, not sure though), I will be around. I know that's bad news for some here. Hahaha. Care no more.

I am actually not religious and more into personal relationship and faith with my HP than having a religion. I also acknowledged that there are many non-Christians who are "nicer" or gentler than me. I have more non-Christian friends than Christians. So God's love is for everyone.


Today my prayer has been answered despite the presence of opposition. Thank you God. I can always, always count on you.