Post by Susan Peabody on Nov 27, 2014 8:47:33 GMT -8
From a member who trusted us enough to try no contact even though she knew it was going to be painful in the beginning.
DAY 50 - THANKFUL!!!
DAY 50 - THANKFUL!!!
Happy Thanksgiving! I am so thankful I think most of all that I have 50 days sobriety in this program. It is just a round number but it means something to me to have these day and reach this point on thanksgiving. It is one of the most meaningful things I am thankful for. It is amazing to me that now the amount of days I have distance from this person is so meaningful to me, when so recently the amount of minutes I could spend in between reconnecting to them was the most important thing in the world to me.
I am also thankful that this program has led me to seek freedom from my family. I am appreciative and respectful of all the people who have loving families on this most family of all oriented holidays. I am happy for them. But I am also happy for me that I have been led to this point that I now have freedom from my own (I am not referring to my own children here because I still have them and love having them). I can honestly say that I might feel freer and lighter today on this thanksgiving than I ever have on any thanksgiving before in my life, since this holiday was always filled with pain for me. I no longer choose to compare myself to others or other people's "happy" families. I no longer choose to involve myself with people who do not value or respect me, even if they are my own "family." I am free and I feel thankful.
I am thankful for things that I do have. Loving and amazing children. A warm and well-heated apartment in a neighborhood that I love. A number of communities of like minded and optimistic people. My own optimism. My own recovery. Hope for the future. Happiness for today.
SandyLove
I am also thankful that this program has led me to seek freedom from my family. I am appreciative and respectful of all the people who have loving families on this most family of all oriented holidays. I am happy for them. But I am also happy for me that I have been led to this point that I now have freedom from my own (I am not referring to my own children here because I still have them and love having them). I can honestly say that I might feel freer and lighter today on this thanksgiving than I ever have on any thanksgiving before in my life, since this holiday was always filled with pain for me. I no longer choose to compare myself to others or other people's "happy" families. I no longer choose to involve myself with people who do not value or respect me, even if they are my own "family." I am free and I feel thankful.
I am thankful for things that I do have. Loving and amazing children. A warm and well-heated apartment in a neighborhood that I love. A number of communities of like minded and optimistic people. My own optimism. My own recovery. Hope for the future. Happiness for today.
SandyLove