I'm having a hard time wrestling with turning myself over to God, my Higher Power, or another definition of the Great Creator. I know this is a problem with ego, and that many formal religions have an explanation of the value of egolessness.
I'm looking for stories about what made you choose God and what helped you let go of "free will" and other definitions that make letting go sound weak.
In my head, I know what the answer is. I know that the most powerful thing a person can do is to surrender their ego and let God guide them. I also know that God can be many things and can be tied to plenty of definitions in and out of a formal religion. Letting go means power, not weakness. Serving a Higher Power and not only the self is what makes someone divine.
I feel a block though, like I should be developing my own tangible willpower. I know this is misguided and will only lead to struggle.
What was your turning point? What was the moment that made you finally feel open to God?
Here are out stories about using the spiritual method for recovery. My story is there. I also wrote my memoirs which are about to be published. Check out the old version before I had my most recent transformational change to Christianity. It is not for everyone, but it is what I experienced.