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Post by picard on Dec 18, 2016 10:00:31 GMT -8
Wow I am the first time really suicidal, at least in thought. The pain is unbearable after i had an additional contact with Poa that yelled at me, called me names, said she hooks up with another guy and then stonewalled me. I know of course I should have avoided this contact but she wanted a last talk.
And I booted another person out of my life immediately that behaved unrespectful to me. She, too, was giving me hurtful comments. I a so afraid.
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Post by Susan Peabody on Dec 18, 2016 10:34:59 GMT -8
Wow I am the first time really suicidal, at least in thought. The pain is unbearable after i had an additional contact with Poa that yelled at me, called me names, said she hooks up with another guy and then stonewalled me. I know of course I should have avoided this contact but she wanted a last talk. And I booted another person out of my life immediately that behaved unrespectful to me. She, too, was giving me hurtful comments. I a so afraid. Usually depression during withdrawal is temporary because it is situational. When recovery takes hold if it will dissipate. If the depression persists longer than six months consider seeking professional help including medication. I am on meds myself. Take care of yourself and do not act on your feelings of suicide. You have too much to live for. We need you here for one thing. Hang in there. Keep posting. |
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Post by picard on Dec 18, 2016 13:10:54 GMT -8
I am much better. Talked to my therapist. I had 2 of the worst hours ever and than it suddenly after deep grieving got much better. I go to rest now, tired.
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Post by Loveanimals on Dec 18, 2016 21:49:40 GMT -8
Great news. I am praying for you!
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Post by picard on Dec 18, 2016 21:59:34 GMT -8
Thank you!
I feel so bad (normal bad, not suicical). Another female friend who claimed I would be her buddy blocked me an social media. She had cancelled the last three meetings and I just set a boundary. And my POA from one second to another delete my stuff, too, and let go obviously. I do not know if anybody ever loved me.
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Post by picard on Jan 10, 2017 4:02:22 GMT -8
Unfortunately again suicidal thoughts, triggered by rejection. Keep seeing counselor. Crazy loneliness.
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Post by mima on Jan 11, 2017 2:32:41 GMT -8
I can relate completely. please hang in there too. I don't want this disease to take either of us.please try to just get through one day at a time. one minute if you have to. then a half hour. then a day
we can do this. we are worth it. we matter. this is not our fault. please stay as strong as you can
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Post by picard on Jan 11, 2017 4:28:17 GMT -8
I can relate completely. please hang in there too. I don't want this disease to take either of us.please try to just get through one day at a time. one minute if you have to. then a half hour. then a day we can do this. we are worth it. we matter. this is not our fault. please stay as strong as you can Thx, that is encouraging. Today a little bit better but I think you know it comes and goes. |
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Post by mima on Jan 11, 2017 19:26:09 GMT -8
I do. I wake up every day in a deep deep depression. I'm scared of the day. i want to sleep. all day. every day. ik scared I'll never get better. im just so scared and so tired
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Post by blurryface on Jan 22, 2017 20:06:26 GMT -8
Nothing really to add except... Hang in there. I'm so sorry you are going through this  |
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Post by mima on Jan 24, 2017 2:29:42 GMT -8
thank you so much. I am doing a little better. my partner took me away on holiday. Im up and moving trying not to fantasise and obsess too much. I want to make a new life. A good life. Im ttying to.focus on the now. I need to move forward so much. thank you all for your care and support. im so glad we are not alone in this impossible pain.
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Post by mima on Apr 11, 2017 17:54:03 GMT -8
it has been months and there are some better days but on days like today I wonder if I have made any progress.
My heart is so heavy and I curse and curse being like this. !@#$%ing universe why nust I suffer so much. It must be the little child in me. poor me poor me poor me.
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Post by picard on Apr 16, 2017 10:46:37 GMT -8
Stop complaining! Useless! Get back on the horse! Cut out every thought on your ex! Imagine a Red Cross that deletes every thought. Helped me.
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Post by picard on Apr 16, 2017 10:47:06 GMT -8
And find a slaa group
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Post by mima on Apr 16, 2017 20:32:50 GMT -8
yep im going to a meeting tonight. im sorry.
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Post by picard on Apr 16, 2017 21:49:42 GMT -8
It will be fine mima. Love addiction is so tough. It needs time.
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Post by loveelleng on Aug 3, 2017 14:30:48 GMT -8
It will be fine mima. Love addiction is so tough. It needs time. Same feeling these days very difficult |
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