Anniversary, and I hadn’t realized it

Anniversaries are HARD lostkate. They really are. Emotions around them are usually tipped off by the seasons. You looked around, realized it was August, and the last time you spent quality time with your mother was - August two years ago.

That's okay to still grieve over her passing. Identify the feeling, go through it, and keep in mind - it will pass and you will always love your mom. That won't change.