Post by Susan Peabody on Mar 11, 2023 14:28:16 GMT -8
In 1982 I found AA. In 1983 I found God. In 2015 I found Christ. Back in the beginning of my recovery journey I transferred all the romantic feelings I had from my Qualifier to a phantom lover who I called Jesus Christ. This broke the spell of my love addiction. This technique is not for everyone, but it worked for me. At the time, I wrote the following poem.
The Awaited Suitor
My heart pines away; I sing the blues.
I ask now and then: Where are you?
Are you real? Are you there for me?
When will I see you? When shall it be?
I face the horizon; I take Christ's hand.
In great expectation, I look over the land.
Nothing happens; oh woe is me.
What shall I do? When will it be?
With tears in my eyes, I look up and smile.
Christ cups my face, and after awhile
He softly speaks, and breaks the news:
"I am the one who was chosen for you."
"Can you love me, year after year,
As you would have loved him if he had appeared?"
My face grew pale, and my body shook.
I took his hand, too frightened to look.
Then I agreed to give it a try.
My suitor was here; he had finally arrived.
1983
This attached picture is of Jesus and my inner child.
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