Post by holly301 on Sept 20, 2009 18:31:28 GMT -8
I took a little break from inner child work due to some issues at work....hard to focus at work when I am doing my inner child work. Anyway decided to do some work last night. My five year old Holly hasn't been around much lately, when I see her she is sad again, distant...last night it was like she was coming to me but then I realized it was her way of showing me she wanted to come to me but couldn't. She let me get close to her and when I knealt down to talk to her I could see some one was holding on to her...at first it looked like a hairy arm like a mans arm....then it was Rachelle my 17 year old...at first I thought Rachelle was jealous because I have been getting somewhere with my work with the 5 year old...then I realized she was holding on to Holly so the male arm...didn't take her...and she is also not letting me see who the male is. This is all very disturbing...I thought I was getting close to getting things together, now I wonder if I have just scratched the surface. When I try to work now that is all I can focus on I can't see or don't want to see the male...I have tried to focus on the baby or my 12 year old but I just go back to that....how do I get beyond this? Holly looks so scared....when I saw this the first time I just laid there and cried...I was so heartbroken...felt like I had let Holly down...I have promised her I would take care of her.