Post by runrunrun on Jul 10, 2010 6:18:36 GMT -8
Hello I am Run. A codependent love and relationship addict. I am here for recovery. I just got out of the worst and most destructive relationships of my life. Thank God!
But I am in a rebound relationship right now. He and I are both recently out of relationships and we are comforting each other. Neither of us are ready or want a new relationship at the time. We are both into each other big time and both confused. I know what I have to do. I have to get out of it and spend some time recovering before going back. I have a feeling we would both end up back together again after we heal.
I am scared as I realized that my happy times in life were when I was in a good relationship. Other than those times my life just was...neither happy or unhappy. I just was. I am afraid I will not be happy unless I am in a relationship. I want to learn to be happy with life just as it is.
There is so much in life that I love...so many things I do. I keep active and have a good life. But those really happy times have all been based on being with someone. I need to learn to be happy all on my own.
That is why I am here. I dove into recovery head first with out coming up for air. I read like crazy. I have read so many self help books its not even funny. I have more on the list to read too. I have both a counselor and a life coach who are getting to the bottom of this and why I am this way.
I really work hard at recovery. I want it bad. I want to really be able to enjoy life just as it is without needing a person in my life to make me happy.
I thank you all for this board and for reading my post.
runrunrun
But I am in a rebound relationship right now. He and I are both recently out of relationships and we are comforting each other. Neither of us are ready or want a new relationship at the time. We are both into each other big time and both confused. I know what I have to do. I have to get out of it and spend some time recovering before going back. I have a feeling we would both end up back together again after we heal.
I am scared as I realized that my happy times in life were when I was in a good relationship. Other than those times my life just was...neither happy or unhappy. I just was. I am afraid I will not be happy unless I am in a relationship. I want to learn to be happy with life just as it is.
There is so much in life that I love...so many things I do. I keep active and have a good life. But those really happy times have all been based on being with someone. I need to learn to be happy all on my own.
That is why I am here. I dove into recovery head first with out coming up for air. I read like crazy. I have read so many self help books its not even funny. I have more on the list to read too. I have both a counselor and a life coach who are getting to the bottom of this and why I am this way.
I really work hard at recovery. I want it bad. I want to really be able to enjoy life just as it is without needing a person in my life to make me happy.
I thank you all for this board and for reading my post.
runrunrun