A new lesson

I have a new lesson to report. I belong to a women's running club. In the past I had been very active in it. This year due to a torn hamstring I hardly ran with them at all and did little to help. But I did organize the winter banquet 3 years in a row. Each year they honor a member of the club with the Founders Award. This year they gave it to me. I was floored. I still find it hard to believe. I told the president and secretary that there certainly are more members who have contributed more than me. But they assured me that I was deserving.

At first I was going to take the gift home, stow it away and tell no one. But I had some words from God telling me this was a lesson. That I need to graciously accept things like this and not talk myself down or tell myself I am undeserving. That even though I see my efforts as very little they really are efforts that help people.

I was in the navy for a long time and military people are always getting awards and metals for something or another. Each time I received something I was embarrassed and wanted to minimize it as much as possible. Saying things like 'I was just in the right place at the right time'.

Now God is telling me that I am at a place in recovery that I need to stop belittling myself and start rebuilding my confidence and self esteem. Praise God.

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